I am surprised, uncertain, open, available, willing, content, curious, tender, passionate, sensual, sassy, yielding, patient. I am living in a place where I lived before and nothing feels the same, smells the same, tastes the same, sounds the same. the loving changed me. cracked me wide open, to myself, who had been waiting all along. i smile. I close my eyes and breathe in this warm wind that blows and causes the branches to bend and twist in the most unusual ways. I am supported, nurtured, held, comforted by hands seen and unseen. I rest in the creative play of life that I am discovering for the first time. I am taken and I give. I am mySelf when I love!